longing...


i miss you so much. i want to hug you really tight. i want to kiss you, cuddle with you all night...
i'm just being true (sometimes, i really believe that alcohol helps me deal with my emotions.) now that i have alcohol running in my blood, i don't care about the world. i would say what i want to say without thinking of other people, shame or whatsoever. I LOVE YOU! i would shout to the world. i want you to know, you're MY ONE GREAT LOVE... i've told you already, i will never love any man again the way i did to you... i hate to feel this way but at the same time i don't care. i feel so helpless and hopeless... but then, one glimpse of you in my memory take those pain away. my heart is overwhelmed by my desire of being with you...
i just want to be with you...forever...

I love you. NOTHING and NOBODY can change that.

can't get over... (october 28, 2009; from my iPod)


i was having a movie marathon... the first movie i watched was Local Color. I was just browsing the tube, looking for a good movie to watch to start my day. i stumbled upon this movie. the lead guy looks so much like "him." of course i continued to watch it until the end. oh how much i love that movie! not just because of the lead guy but the movie itself. it was very inspiring; it shows how one should pursue his dreams no matter what, points of view from different ages and the four seasons; the nature... the trees, the mountains, the plains, the rivers, the lakes, the seas... the clouds and the sky being painted vibrantly by the setting sun...